What am I doing??

That's the real question. I still ask me the fundamental question: What am I doing about relationships? When its about bad relationships i dont know.

Let me explain you first and please be the judges: I had a friend who I felt in love. I really love her. The thing is, tomorrow is her birthday and I had the intention to give her a call. I think we are in good terms (maybe as friends) but i think thats not the case. I have some contacts to get her phone number but when I ask about her they say to me: She had told me not to give you her phone number...

So I ask myself: What am I doing?? How bad could be to give a ring and say hello, congrats to someone you had loved??

She was very special to me and I really felt in love with her. Too bad for me to be in this situation. If I only could get another shot with her.

If it happens, it happens...
Well, I think this is the best thing to do (or not to do).